by Amanda Jennings, Girls Who Hike New York Ambassador
I recently switched to a different shift at my full time job, and I swore it would have been so much easier for me to have a life, and go on adventures, and be happy. Little did I know that at the same time I began my overnight position we would have a selfish staff member quit before their 2 weeks’ notice was up, have another staff member drop from her full time status down to per diem, and have staff members taking very long vacations. Needless to say, I’ve been working more hours than I’ve slept every weekend since starting this position, and I cherish my one day off a week.
When I go on Instagram, I get kind of sad when I see everyone’s adventure posts; the waterfalls, the mountain tops, the animals. It’s not easy to not be sad because where I live isn’t near any amazing hikes. The hikes I want to do the most involve getting in the car and driving an hour if not further. Now, that wouldn’t be such a problem if my brand new car of not even a year didn’t already have almost 30,000 miles on it due to my commute to work and school. It wouldn’t be such a problem if I wasn’t working the insane amount of overtime that I am to save money instead of paying bills, and paying for my 2019 wedding. I get paid every two weeks, and typically once my day (or if I’m lucky days) off roll around, I try not to travel too far to save on gas and mileage on my car.
It’s nowhere near easy for me to go from working an overnight shift immediately to an adventure, especially when I live an hour from my job (work is closer to hikes), and if I hike after work, I’m leaving my dog home by himself until my return. I struggle unbelievably to find the balance of enjoying my life, and working towards my goals. But you know what? When I look at people’s Instagram posts, I have to remind myself of some things: most of these people don’t work overnights, and some are even lucky enough to have weekends off; some of these people are lucky enough to live so much closer to incredible hikes than I am; these people have different lives than me.
This post is for all of the girls out there who can’t find the time (or energy) for adventures. I know I’m not the only one out there with these struggles, and I want other girls to know that they are not alone!